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As I walk down the canyon wash I stretch out both my arms and my hands gently slide down the walls. For at this moment I am completely living in the now. The deeper I walk, the clearer my thoughts and my mind become. At this moment I am able to reflect on m y past, present, and future. I am able to see what pain I have caused myself and my loved ones. I know I have a lot of work to do to become the man I want to be. Being able to have my mind clear I am able concentrate on the work I need to do. I know this process won’t be easy. Being able to take these first few steps into sobriety is a big accomplishment for me. My family and loved ones may have not considered me hopeless but I considered myself hopeless.
Being out here along the clear Colorado River and rock lined canyon walls with my six fellow residents I am able to talk about my problems and insecurities without judgement or recourse. Not only am I able to talk about these issues, my fellow residents also helps me through these issues. They give me advice and help me look at things through new and different perspectives.
Not only do I think I am in the right place to fix my habits and life issues. I know I am in the right place. I knew this process would not be easy. So far I have to use a lot of patience, understanding, and perseverance. With each day I feel I open up a little more and learn something new about myself with the help of my fellow resident’s staff and therapist. I am able to reach goals, discuss difficulty topics, and make strides in changing my bad thinking and outlook on certain things. I still have five months left in the program and I feel without a doubt I will be able to accomplish all my goals and become a better person for my community, family, and significant others. I am looking forward to life and its challenges. I am looking forward to becoming a better man and having a positive outlook on my future. This week I will be starting my 12 step program. From what I’ve learned so far I am now able to open up and work the steps to my recovery. Life is good.