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I have been at Back to Basics Sober Living for over four months now and I’m starting to see what sobriety looks like. The fog in my head is starting to get lifted away. I am working hard with my sponsor. He has over seven years clean and I want what he has. I am currently working on step which is making a list of all people I have harmed. I am willing to make amends to them all. Before I came to back to basics I didn’t think I owed so many amends to people in the past. I am starting to feel good about this process and the help I have with it. Working on the steps is a very spiritual process. I pray every day and ask for forgiveness from others and that I stay on the path to help others.
Being on the outdoor adventure therapy trips is spiritual for me, for me there is something about being at the top of a mountain peak or at out in the middle of nowhere looking at gods creations without the city lights, cars, or society that I find serenity. I get a great sense of accomplishment in hiking and backpacking, being self-supportive in the outdoors as well. I look forward to every trip we take in the outdoors. I’m starting to wish the trips were longer. This did not use to be the case for me. I came to Back 2 Basics not liking the outdoor trips. It’s funny to me because when I first got here older clients told me the longer I stayed the more and more I would come to like being outdoors, however I disagreed. Now I am telling newer clients the same thing.
Recently I went to have some blood work done and after seeing the results I couldn’t be happier. My blood sugar numbers couldn’t be better. They have improved so much since starting Back 2 Basics, my average is better than it’s ever been in my entire life. My parents and I couldn’t be happier with that. My first month here I was almost discharged for not taking care of my diabetes. I have come a long way since then. Managing my diabetes is not only important to staying healthy, it is critical to my recovery as well. The way I see it is if I can’t manage my diabetes honestly how can I work a completely honest program of AA, not to mention I feel physically healthier than ever and I like that.
I have been working hard in my therapy to really to get the root of all the problems that I have. I am starting to see how my part in many situations affects others and how my thoughts are not normal and unrealistic a lot of the time. I feel like this is important in my recovery because it’s important to learn why I do and say the negative things I do so that in the future I can have good coping skills to help combat the negative or using though that I do.
I have really learned a lot about myself not only in therapy but from my peers, my sponsor, therapist, staff, and transition clients. After four months I’m starting to see the bigger picture of life and take criticism with a grain of salt to see how I can change for the better, instead of getting mad or offended, which is what I used to do. Not everyday day is a perfect day at Back 2 Basics, but overall I am content and happy. If I keep working hard I know I will be successful thanks to B2B and I know what sobriety will look like long-term.