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I’ve really enjoyed our busy schedule. I have noticed personal growth in many of my daily tasks. My emotional growth is where we felt the biggest difference has occurred. When I came in I was apathetic to everything and still just surviving. I find that now with time, friendships, therapy and groups that I’m frequently content and happy. My anger and frustration have subsided and when things do come up they are short lived.
I’m grateful for the program and staff. I have been happy to be alive for the first time in years and legitimately feel these feelings. My family weekend is coming up and my anxiety that I never have is coming into play. I have no idea what to expect but I know my family loves me. The worst that can happen has already happened and I know that they are there for me. I couldn’t be more grateful. This therapy group has been along time coming and I know that it could be rough but relieving. It will be interesting getting my feelings off my chest without arguments taking over and anger ruling over rash statements. I had the most loving conversation with my Mom in years. I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt the love.
I know that my Dad has changed a lot since I’ve spent any real time with them. It will be interesting to get their perspective, and hear their feelings and part of what happened. I haven’t felt love in a long time and I feel it could be overwhelming in a good productive way. When my Dad and I speak, its usually about the outdoors. I’ve always enjoyed the outdoors but with every trip my love grows. Its cool having at least one thing we share and can spend time together doing. It will be interesting telling them about my feelings, stories, how deep I’ve dug myself, and some of the losses I’ve experienced. Even though I feel that they look at me different I’m really not sure how it will play out. My Mom is emotional and my Dad is a happy crier. I just hope they understand that I was doing what I had to do to survive the circumstances.
I never had therapy till I came to Back2Basics. I always believed that it couldn’t help that much. Its helped heaps and bounds. Got to hand it to Natalie and my sponsor for giving me different opinions but ultimately listening and understanding. It feels great to care and have those who care about me. Wouldn’t have it any different.
Client Journal – Michael