The whole idea of me putting trust into another person who used to have the same fouled up ideas that I had, wasn’t appealing to me. Trusting people before has gotten me stabbed in the back, metaphorically and physically speaking. On my 3rd day here at Back2Basics we had an in-house alumni meeting and the speaker was ‘Patrick’. When I heard Patrick’s story it really made me start to believe that maybe other people have been through the same things I have and experienced the sort of loneliness and heart break I’ve endured. I also saw the most important aspect of his story, the way he’s been able to overcome all those negative aspects and turn it into humility and openness… I couldn’t believe that this man before me has experienced all of those horrible things and isn’t still getting high. I wanted what he had and I was gonna go to any length to get it. I asked him if I could speak to him after the meeting and I asked him to be my sponsor. Now, I’m a man’s man and I consider it weak if you ask for help. It took a lot for me to ask another addict for help but so far its been a wonderful experience. He said something on our first sit-down that really hit me. He told me the worst thing hes gonna do is help me. I’m excited and determined to do whatever he suggests.
Resident Journal – Raymond R