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Meditation
At this point in my recovery, meditation is not very important to me. Before trying sobriety, I had never meditated. Now that I am in recovery I have been introduced to meditation and the potential benefits that meditation brings. Since I am trying everything to stay sober, I have been keeping an open mind to trying new things that people say is good for recovery. Meditation is one of those things people have been talking to me about. People in AA, my therapist and other B2B workers believe meditation is great and that it is extremely beneficial.
I’ve tried meditation many times since coming to B2B but have yet to find any benefit to the process. Every time we meditate at B2B, I take the process seriously even though I am not meditation for personal reasons/benefits. I do respect others at the program for enjoying their meditation and taking it seriously. I, like others, have tried to meditate on my own and have done it on my own time and on my own pace for better results. Even meditation on my own hasn’t worked for me or provided any benefit.
However, just because I cannot sit down in a room and meditate doesn’t mean I don’t get the same benefits from meditation in other areas. Today at this point in my life, meditation to me just means finding a peace and serenity as well as being able to be super present and mindful. To me, I receive my meditation on the outdoor trips. Being able to hike through the woods and then sleep in the woods provides such a great peace and serenity that no other activity could replicate. This is exactly what meditation means to me and what I always want it to mean. Being outside provides such an intense level of serenity cannot even describe.
Being outdoors on trips is such a peaceful place for me. In the woods, I also stay super present and mindful at all times. I believe that being away from the real world and being amongst everything natural takes away my worries and allow me to focus on the beautiful views, sound and smell around me. I hope that I can keep using the outdoors as a meditative tool because it keeps me very happy as well as active. Being active is such an important and vital part of sobriety for me, and therefore I never want to lose that passion for being outside and active.
Meditation is therefore beneficial to me in more than one way. By being outside, I can say peaceful and still have those meditative moments but also be physically active and therefore help myself stay sober. Overall, I am open minded to indoor, classic meditation techniques, but right now, being outdoors provides me the strongest meditative experience have ever felt.