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In addiction I lost myself and in recovery I can find myself, but it is a process and it takes time to undo the past. That’s what Back 2 Basics Sober Living is all about.
I grew up in Green Bay Wisconsin. I had a really normal childhood life I grew up in the nice house with a nice family. I have one brother and one sister. Brother was older than me and my sister was younger than me. I was a middle child and loved it. I could blame shit on my brother and sister without questions asked. Fast forward….. When I was 12 years old I started smoking pot with my buddies a few times a month and about 13 years old I was doing it every day. I thought nothing of it. We would go to parties and do it because it was the social thing to do and of course drinking was too. No one ever thought that I had a problem until I was smoking by myself.
I was about fifteen when I moved out of my house to go live with other people like the kids that were doing the same thing as I was. I would skip from friend to friend and live with them for a little while. Then I started selling pot and became really distant from my friends and just worried about how I was going to get money and get high that day. I was about 16 when I went to my first rehab. That really got me out of control when I got there I didn’t want to be sober and no one else did either. This was in a town called Thompson Falls Montana. It was a really small town. We went to public school got to play sports, but be sober.
I was 7 months clean and relapsed on cocaine pot and meth. There was no thought that this was wrong so I continued to use while I was in rehab for 8 more months with a few of the guys.
It wasn’t long after that we started using the needle and shooting cocaine and taking Xanax. I left the program and started to live in Montana I got a job with the forest Service as a wild land firefighter. I did that for 3 months then left the program. There was nothing I thought of it.
I moved to Milwaukee and got a job with the disposal Company. I was running heavy equipment and doing a lot of drugs. It wasn’t until I move to Boulder Colorado that I thought I had a problem. I was selling cocaine and Molly and shipping off weed to Pennsylvania and Chicago. I was shooting cocaine and smoking it, and also smoking heroin and taking a lot of Molly.
I could not stop. I got really scared. I was up for so long I could see things. We were buying Xanax online and not caring about a thing.
It wasn’t until I was in jail with 4 felonies under my belt thinking that I could not live my life like this anymore that’s when I gave up trying to become a false person and made a decision to find myself with the help of Back 2 Basics. I know it won’t be easy, but this time I must do it… I have to do it. Sometimes I don’t like what I find in myself, but each day is a new step in recovery and I’m starting to discover the real me because my mind isn’t warped anymore. In away it’s scary, but in another way I can’t wait to find out.