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At the moment I am working on my 7th step, which is putting a lot of new thoughts in my head, especially while we camp this week. The most recent thought that I have been having is that I feel like I am becoming a person you don’t want to be around while in sobriety. I get easily annoyed by small things and I am becoming very judgmental of those around me. It is easy to forget that I was that same person 4 months ago when I first came to Back 2 Basics and all of the progress I made. Most of the time, I do it without even noticing. I need to give my sponsor a call to see if he has any suggestions for me on the matter.
I have been praying every morning and night using the 7th step prayer hoping to remove all of my character defects; it is a lot easier said than done. I think I just need to try to always be conscious and think about what I am about to say. This is difficult for me because I am a very impulsive person.
Most days it doesn’t feel like I’m in rehab. The first day of the trip we went to Fossil Creek where we got to swim in clear blue water and jump off the big rocks near the creek. It was beautiful with all the waterfalls. It’s crazy that we had to ruin our lives, to come here and enjoy this kind of scenery that so many wish they could see, but don’t, as our punishment.
The second day was just as beautiful and we went to West Fork. Half of the hike was spent walking through the water and it was surrounded by huge rocks. It got a little tiresome because we didn’t really know where we were going to camp for the night, but finally we found a place up on one of the rock faces. We stayed up all night just playing cards and talking. The next morning on the way back was just as beautiful but a little bit less comfortable. That’s because we left early in the morning and the water was freezing cold. After awhile though my feet went completely numb so it wasn’t too bad. We ended up doing very while with the hike. We did it so fast and I was glad to be going back to Flagstaff.
Over all I really enjoyed this camping trip. The hikes were nice and flat with beautiful scenery. This trip was also very good for my sobriety because I was able to look deeper into myself and see the things I would like to change.