I’ve been looking for another new thing to work on in my therapeutic work. Keelyn pointed out that she believes I’m not connected to my heart. What she meant is I’m not connected to my feelings. I believe that this is the next thing important for me to work on. I’m going to take time out and search my feelings in the moment. I believe that I am in connection with my feelings but I’m definitely not in full tune. My past experiences and the way the city has torn me away from my feelings has created a dissonance. It’s been years and years of pushing off feelings. I have made progress in this but never focused on this nor have I ever had it on the forefront of my mind. I’m really excited to see where this therapeutic work could take me. It will help with my vulnerability and hopefully my happiness. I’ve been working on my accountability and others accountability. I still have leadership in mind. I remind myself every day of my ability to justify and to watch and listen to other’s advice and help those in need. It’s going to be a challenge to work on in my next therapeutic step. It’s hard to think that my life experiences have numbed me from my feelings for so long. Today, I’ve realized that I’m becoming more in tune with my feelings but I still have a lot of work to do. Fortunately, I have the time and place to focus on this. We’re always working on ourselves, and the progress I’ve felt in the last five months, has me excited to see what’s in my future.
Client Journal – Michael